Not even go to lie to anyone reading this: I’m exhausted. Social media has been exhausting. Work has been exhausting. Aside from the things I’ve been showing you and the copious amount of tweets that I either produce or retweet daily, it’s been extremely difficult to produce any kind of content. Especially with the niche that I love the most: anime. I don’t think that enough content creators talk about this so I think it’s time that I express how I feel about the thing I dread the most about being creative: burnout.
It’s been quite difficult to make a “breakthrough” of some sort because nowadays the niches that I’m interested in: anime, cosplay, etc. is flooded with content. I started to go down the rabbit hole of “what’s the point of posting something on TikTok, Instagram, or YouTube when no one is going to see it?” As a smaller creator, I think that even though I’ve tried my best to be consistent, it’s still feels pointless in my opinion most of the time to post something.
I also think that it’s difficult to produce anything when you’re a kind of person who doesn’t have energy most of the time due to health (mental and physical). I don’t want to strain myself more than I already am due to life dealing me physical and psychic damage every chance it can get. This is the major reason why I haven’t posted consistently. Yes, the algorithm plays a role, because I’m always thinking about farming for views have been zapping out the little energy that I have left. Instead, I just don’t post until I’m ready to do so.
Additionally, I think it’s also not having the “persona” or pizzazz developed to be a creator. What you see online in tweets, IG stories, and TikTok videos is who I am in real life-often times even more anxious than what I appear to be. I’m also the type of person who likes to show rather than to speak. With that method in place content wise, I think that I haven’t found a sparkly way to express myself in a way to stand out among others.
There were also thoughts in my head to make this year the last year that I delve into cosplay, anime, etc. because of the infinite loop of burnout I am still experiencing. The thought of not catching a trend quick enough burned me out. Being told to be consistent and have a schedule burned me out. Seeing that others already discussed the topic at hand and saying anything additional more than often times feels meaningless. As someone who always wanted to do creative outlets throughout their whole life, it feels less fun now more than ever.
Now don’t take this blog as a way for me to get attention for people to view my work. It’s not the type of post. The purpose of this blog is to vent out feelings that I’m sure others have felt. I just hope that with me venting a little bit, that I can jump over the burnout mental block.
I don’t have advice at this moment because everyone’s process is different. But what I’ve been doing to heal from burnout is not consume the media that I know that is causing the burnout. I’ve been watching J-Dramas and even watching video game content for games I’m getting back into. I even started to watch anime that has been on my watchlist for a long time. I’m working on feeling that watching anime is fun rather than it being a number game.
What do you do to overcome burnout? Leave comments at the bottom of this blog and let me know what you think.
I’m looking to not giving up on creating despite the weight I’m holding. Thank you for reading.
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